In My Mind

Brother "L" is Smoking? Attended the mass alone last Sunday. When I got to the church, there were only few people inside the church. I checked the time, its already 6:30pm. I was supposed to be 30mins late! Then I saw Bro. L. I said kamusta. I know him because siya yung nagbless dito sa shop namin on our grand opening. Anyway, so kamusta kamusta. I thought he was standing at the side of the church kase nagpapahangin siya, kase he keeps on saying "ang init. ang init". Tapos, I was looking around, then pagharap ko sa kanya, he was puffing a cigarette! I was really shocked! He was wearing pa this black na parang dress ha.. I was like, " huh? nagyoyosi po pala kayo Brother?.." He said, "ah! eto ang bisyo na hinding hindi matigilan.. sasabihing hihinto na.. hihinto.. hihinto maya maya!hahaha!" Ang weird.. Magiging priest na siya but he haven't given up everything! Mali dibah? Naweirduhan talaga ako. Ganun na ba ngayon? Baka sa susunod na makita ko, may tumatawag na ng "daddy" kay Bro. L..

Peace. It's been a month since the last time I attended mass. There were a lot of things that keeps on bothering me and problems that I consider as "no more solutions". A friend told me na you should ask God for his help. Tell him everything, because nothing is imposibble with God. So, I went to church, Sunday night. Sometimes, I don't listen sa mga binabasa sa church. Pero I always listen sa sermon ng priest. So nung nagsesermon na yung priest, tinamaan ako.. Parang i felt that God is talking to me. As if He was telling me na, "Ganito ako. Dapat ganito ka rin. Because you are a Catholic." Parang ganun eh.. I cried the whole time na nagsesermon yung priest. I can't help it. Communion. I told Him everything. I cried. I asked help from Him. I told Him not to let satan get into this.

When I got home, I sat on our very relaxing chair that my Ate Hana gave us, listened to my mp3 and I wrote down everything that's in my mind.. Akala ko nga hindi na ako matatapos sa pagsusulat. I cried again. Then, parang nag-iba na yung feeling ko. Parang magic! Suddennly, I felt peace.. Nagsign of the cross ako, and I said, "Thank you, Lord. Thank you po.."

Iba talaga si Lord. He is really powerful. He can give you everything, if you would just approach Him..

Fully Booked. Grocery again! Went to the supermarket with my sis-in-law, her cousin and my niece. Kakatawa kaming dalawa. When we were at the cashier, palake ng palake mga mata namin. Ang mahal na talaga ngayon! Parang gusto kong pigilan yung cashier sa pagpunch pero i can't! Lahat naman kase ng buy ko are all necessities.

We had lunch at this so-called steak fastfood. It's not worth! Halos walang gravy. Ang beef, walang lasa! Ang sizzling plate, lasa ng uling! Pinilit ko nalang ubusin. Sayang eh! Their prices are the same with Steak Side na kinakainan namin ni hany sa tabi-tabi ng Binan. Walang-wala talaga yung lasa ng steak fastfood na yan sa Steak Side! Minsan talaga, mas masarap pa ang food sa tabi-tabi kaysa sa mall.

Went to Avon, may mga orders kasi si sis and ako rin! heehee. Haba ng pila.

Pissed off. Nakakapikon ang mga jeepney drivers! Ayaw magstick sa isang lane! Tapos magbababa ng passengers sa gitna ng daan! Grabeh! Nakakapikon! Tapos pag nabangga mo, sila pa ang galit! Samantalang sila nga 'tong gago magdrive! I was in a hurry pa naman cause my hany is going to use the car. He has to pay our PLDT bill before 5pm.

When he came back, we went naman to his mom's house to get my other clothes I left. I was so pissed when I opened the drawer, ang gulo ng mga damit ko! I left it ng nakaayos yun! I asked my hany na to get my top and skirt that his cousin borrowed, oh, not borrowed, got pala. When i went out of the room, I saw my bra and one top and my.. underwear!!! Oh my God! She used my bra and underwear! She didn't asked permission from me! I confronted his cousin and told her na she has no right na galawin ang gamit ko without my permission! Arrrrgggggg!!! Ayoko ng magkwento! Umiinit nanaman ang ulo ko! Ang kapal ng mukha niya eh! She didn't even apologize! And guess what?? I lost 2 colognes with fruity scents! My mom gave that to me pa!

Anyway, from there, we went straight to buy something for dinner and for lunch para sa susunod na araw. Bago pa kame maka-eat, my sis-in-law texted me na. My father-in-law kase wants me to accompany her even just for a few days sa paniningil. Para siguro maguide ko siya sa mga places and sa pagddrive.. Tuwa naman ako.. They really trust me huh.. :D

Super Busy talaga yesterday kaya I didn't have the time to blog :(